Not Enough

See, look. I've never felt more distant from you than when you were right beside me.

I was never capable of having that feeling of being wanted, unless we were fighting.

See, look. Once I heard a man say, "Oh, I get it now. Because it's much more fun loving someone who doesn't love you back."

Well guess what. That's true for you and now I'm spinning in a circle; my life is off track.

The things I did for you, you did for me; and you had me thinking that I wasn't just an ordinary human being.

I was yours, your souldmate. I was everything you wanted, but nothing you needed. 

To you, in my eyes, I was just a filler in the space. A crinkled up reason to not do your homework or not go home on time.

You lied to me saying you wanted to be with me, but that was only true as long as I had money.

I told you that I would do everything I could to make you happy, but I guess everything isn't good enough.

So I bought you everything, gave you all my love, but I guess all my love isn't good enough.

I guess the countless hours we spent together the past year and a half weren't good enough.

I guess I wasn't good enough.